I want to post some really awesome "Blubberings" As they call it here, but...I am at a standstill at the moment , on how to condense everything in one whole page.
My emotions and feelings have been on "High Alert" these last few months.
I look at the last 25 years since Melissa was born ....And I wonder; have I done anything worth while in my life besides Have children? And....What have they "really" learned from me? That is a scary thought. As I watched Melissa say "I do" a couple of weeks ago, I thought 'Where did all the time go?' When it seemed like it was going 'so slow' , when my kids were small, in reality it was speeding up and now the next phase of my life is here and I can't change anything that's already happened to shape my children's life's.
I saw a beautiful bride and a beautiful Maid of Honor and a very handsome son and Father all there at Melissa's wedding; and though we were all happy, we were sad too, Because nothing ever stays the same and is always changing and I wanted to yell..Stop! Make it last a while longer. Go back to when you were small so I can teach you all the things that I thought I had time to teach you and didn't.
Now that I have a grand baby on the way I guess I will have to try and slow down this time and really do and teach her all those things I meant to do when Her mother was little.
I guess that is why Grandparents spoil their grand kids....It is a way of undoing or doing all those things we meant to do as Parents!
I can not wait to touch her little head and tell her all the things I "meant to say to my own kids!
My life is changing, so fast, and I am not ready!
But I am anticipating all those things I meant to do!
My emotions and feelings have been on "High Alert" these last few months.
I look at the last 25 years since Melissa was born ....And I wonder; have I done anything worth while in my life besides Have children? And....What have they "really" learned from me? That is a scary thought. As I watched Melissa say "I do" a couple of weeks ago, I thought 'Where did all the time go?' When it seemed like it was going 'so slow' , when my kids were small, in reality it was speeding up and now the next phase of my life is here and I can't change anything that's already happened to shape my children's life's.
I saw a beautiful bride and a beautiful Maid of Honor and a very handsome son and Father all there at Melissa's wedding; and though we were all happy, we were sad too, Because nothing ever stays the same and is always changing and I wanted to yell..Stop! Make it last a while longer. Go back to when you were small so I can teach you all the things that I thought I had time to teach you and didn't.
Now that I have a grand baby on the way I guess I will have to try and slow down this time and really do and teach her all those things I meant to do when Her mother was little.
I guess that is why Grandparents spoil their grand kids....It is a way of undoing or doing all those things we meant to do as Parents!
I can not wait to touch her little head and tell her all the things I "meant to say to my own kids!
My life is changing, so fast, and I am not ready!
But I am anticipating all those things I meant to do!
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ReplyDeleteKinda depressing "blubbering" i'd say!
ReplyDeleteBut I thought you were a great mother...and if that is coming from stubborn ol' me than it must mean something! :)